Life is a book with many chapters...

As I wrap up the last few days I have here in NYC, I am overcome with a flood of emotions. Coming here I didn't know the friendships that I would be blessed with, I didn't know the sense of camaraderie and closeness I would gain with the staff here. All I can say is, "How lucky am I have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."

This past week I have been avoiding even thinking about mentally preparing to go home, because every time I do, I end up in tears. Coming here I did not expect to fall in love with NYC, at first I wasn't too sure. I initially said that it was just different because I hadn't come to terms with the raw beauty that is NYC. But NYC I see you, I found you sitting in Bryant Park and basking in the sun, the hum of the subway and cars. I know that I may have not seen you running on all cylinders, but I have seen your soul and it is beautiful. I will treasure this time in my life and look back with fondness. While being here I have grown so much as person and as a nurse. I learned to trust myself and go for anything any everything that my heart desires. You taught me to see people for who they really are and not allow myself to be treated any less than I deserve. For the longest time, I've allowed people to take advantage of my kind loving soul. And that Destinee is dead and gone, I will only allow people into my life that will push me to be the best person that I can be and grow with me. I have made some friends here that have pushed me to not allow anything but the best for me. I will cherish these friendships, because they saw me at some of the lowest points and reminded me how beautiful my soul is and to continue to be the amazing person that I am.

To the staff of NYP Columbia ER, you guys are hands down some of the most Badasses I have ever had the privilege of working along side. Although I may have not been here when all this shit went down, I'd like to think that I was able to give you all some much needed rest, some deep belly laughs, some much needed love to remind you all that you guys are fucking amazing and going to go down in history as legendary. I am humbled that you all accepted this girl from the Midwest and welcomed me with the biggest open arms. You have made me feel right at home, well as much as possible. Enough to get me wanting to move to NYC. So like I've said to many of you this is not goodbye, this is see you later.

I am down to my final 48 hours here in the city for a while and I plan on living to the fullest all of those hours. As much as I will love being home with Maui and resting, I will miss being here in the city and living it up in the city. That just means that I'll have to hurry back as soon as I can. Until then a part of my heart will stay here in NYC.

xoxo,

Destinee